I've heard it said that pain is the gift no one wants. Nobody wants to be in pain, unless you're a masochist and that's another story, but pain does have a lesson to teach, a gift to give if you're willing to be open to it. I first injured my back when I was 20, then was in a bad bike wreck at 22. My back finally crapped out on me at 24 and that was my introduction to wrenching physical pain. A diligent chiropractor got me up and running again, but my first pregnancy brought it all back and I've been battling this demon ever since. Last week, in the horribly strenuous process of making a bed, my back gave out again. It was so amazingly painful! I was bedridden, walking made me sob, I could barely stand long enough to change Grant's poppy diaper, and I didn't know what I was going to do. How could I be a wife and mother, be dilligent in my callings, or accomplish the things I desire to do if I couldn't walk, stand or even sit? For the first time, however, I didn't question what was happening...the pain and the situation were what they were. I got on my knees and the first thing out of my mouth (which surprised me a little) was, "Thank you for this opportunity to learn." And I finally saw that pain is indeed a gift and a teacher. Here's what I've learned in the past week:
1. Pain turns our heart to Christ.
- For however many steps it took for Him to understand, feel, and bear all the pains, sorrows, sins, disappointments, and afflictions of my life, He walked in my shoes. If the pain I experienced caused me to almost pass out at the doctor's office, I can easily understand how taking on the pain and sins of all of us caused Christ to sweat "great drops of blood."
2. Pain helps us be more compassionate and less likely to judge.
- "The Lord seeth not as man seeth, for man looketh on the outward appearance, but the Lord looketh on the heart." (1 Sam. 16:7) When we experience pain in life it can open our heart to the idea that others are feeling something similar. Instead of looking on the outward actions of someone's life and judging them harshly, we can extend mercy and kindness because they may be hurting.
3. Pain is a doorway to greater blessings.
- If I hadn't had this experience, I wouldn't have been searching for help close to home. I wouldn't have asked the Lord to guide my thoughts, wouldn't have had the Spirit help me recall a forgotten conversation I'd overheard which then led me to medical help that has produced miraculous results. The Lord wants me whole because I have more work to do, and now that will happen.
4. Pain allows us to feel God's love.
- The tremendous spiritual help I've received this past week reinforces my testimony that God is mindful of me, that He is an anxious and loving parent desirous of granting much needed blessings.
5. Pain provides opportunities to render service.
- My husband, my children, and my parents all came rushing to my aid. Their tender and loving care could not be more appreciated. Especially big kudos go to Chad who was mother and father and nursemaid all rolled into one.
6. Pain helps increase appreciation for life's little things.
- The first time I was able to sit up was a revelation - what a wonderful thing it is to sit! When I could walk to the bathroom by myself I wanted to throw a party. When I was able to contribute to the household maintenance by folding laundry I wanted to weep with gratitude. It is the small things of life that make it a such big, wonderful experience.
The last thing I learned is that it is really only fun to be in bed if you
choose to be there. Enforced bed rest is the pits. :)